To a Secured Future

Ever since I was a kid, I've always felt a huge responsibility towards my family and the people I truly care about. No one had to tell me what to do or how to do things, I intiated things the way I think is right. I always look out for my family first before myself. I don't know why is that, but that's just how I am. Myself comes last in everything.

It's not a walk in the park though. A huge responsibility like mine always comes with stress, anxiety, and depression. But those things can't and won't bring me down. Like my boyfriend always tells me, "You're a born leader. You are meant to lead a pack."

And just like that, I'm motivated to do things again.

A Summary of My 2017

Having a tragic 2016 made me not anticipate anything for 2017. But unexpected things (good ones) happened — things that I never thought would be possible. I am just so glad that I did not expected anything, and they just kind of happened.

"Everyday holds the possibility of a miracle."

- Elizabeth David

Health is Wealth

2017 has been a great year for me, greater than I’ve expected. But I am so excited for the upcoming year; so excited for what 2018 has in store for me. One thing’s for sure though, in 2018, I will be taking extra care for myself emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually.

For the last couple of years (this year included), I’ve been taken myself for granted. I always place myself last in every list I make. It sucks! This year made me realized so many wrong things that I’ve been doing in my life which affected my emotional, mental, and physical health. I made a few changes this year, but I feel like they are still not enough.

Wounds Are Slowly Healing

Now that it’s already December, last month of the year; I can’t help but reflect how different this year has been for me than the previous year. I am definitely less stressed this year, but the stress and anxiety is still there (I doubt that will ever go away). But life is so much better now, that’s for sure. Thank You, God!

Last year, I can’t even sleep properly. I had so much stuff to think about, mostly problems. I was even suicidal. I am just so grateful that this year has been better; emotionally, financially (a little), and mentally.

PHOTOS OF THE DAY 1 - Report Card

I decided to start this new gimmick in my blog - photos of the day. Showing you a glimpse of my day through pictures. I decided to start this so that I can be active in my blog and also practice my photography (ehem!). So, today is the start of (hopefully) something amazing.

It's been raining here for days, and today is no exception. It was a bummer because I was planning to go out and do some errands but my sister took my umbrella to school, so I have no choice but to postpone my errands.

You Can't Pour From an Empty Cup

Few days ago, I was feeling down, upset, and frustrated about my life. I just feel like I’m not going anywhere in my life while most of the people I know are already “someone” in life. An engineer, a nurse, a teacher, a soon-to-be doctor, and a lot more. I, on the other hand, is still a nobody.

I am in my usual home clothes everyday (not that I am complaining about that), but staying at home all the time has burned me out already. I need something that I can interact with people, make friends, learn something, just anything.

I was telling my boyfriend about it and like usual, being the best boyfriend that he is, he talked me out of the depression bubble. Everyone has a destination of their own, and they will get there at their own pace.

I Miss You

I know I’ve been idle in my blogs for a while now. Been posting one or two entries per month, and that sucks because I used to be very active in my blogs before. Imagine, I can post twice or thrice a day before. I can talk about anything under the sun. And now, once or twice a month only. Sometimes nothing at all.

YOU ARE LUCKY

Have you realized how lucky you are lately? I don't only mean financially, but yes, that too. What I mean is, have you realized that you are lucky because you are healthy, you have friends that truly loves you, you have a family, you have food, you have education, and a lot of other things that other people don't have the luxury of anything? Because if not, then you are wrong. We are all lucky.

Photo grabbed from Pinterest

I Am Flawed and It's Okay

I have always been an introvert. I was always the shy one in my circle of friends. I was always the one that think too much. I was always the one makes a big deal of what others think of what I look, what I do, how I sound, how I look, and etc.

Today, I am still one hell of an introvert. One of my jobs requires me to meet people from all walks of life, in short; strangers, and yet I am still not used to it even though I've been on it for three years now. I guess being an introvert doesn't change that fast. But I can proudly say I have crossed some of my inhibitions from my list and it felt so damn good. You know that feeling of achievement? Yeah, that.

I have come to terms on accepting my flaws. That I am not somebody else, but me, only me. I am not perfect, and that's perfectly fine. I will not be like her or like you no matter how I try, but I will always be me, and that's okay.

Looking for Business Ideas

I've been idle in the past two days. I can't find enough inspiration to do my job and everything else, honestly. While I was browsing my Facebook account yesterday, I saw a status that my boss shared in his timeline. It was a post from one of his friends and the post is about 101 signs that you are successful in your chosen career or business. At the end of the post, he said something that really inspired me.

"In order to be successful, you have to eat dirt, suffer and make a lot of sacrifices. That is if you are in for the long run, not just for a short time victory."

That statement truly inspired me... It awaken something inside me. I keep visiting his blog now so I can fish for more motivations and ideas as well.

Life... Full of Surprises

Hi everyone! I've been missing in action for months, again. So much has happened in my life outside the internet. Some of it, I am proud of and the rest just makes me sad. In just a matter of seconds, my life changed. No, it's not what you think. I did not get married or got pregnant. I've been contemplating if I should share it here or not... but I decided that I should. I need a breathing room and this blog is perfect for that.

My dear readers, brace yourself because this may just be one of my many dramatic posts.

The sad thing is, nobody ever really knows how much anyone else is hurting. 

We could be standing next to somebody who is completely broken and we don't even know it.