Health is Wealth

2017 has been a great year for me, greater than I’ve expected. But I am so excited for the upcoming year; so excited for what 2018 has in store for me. One thing’s for sure though, in 2018, I will be taking extra care for myself emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually.

For the last couple of years (this year included), I’ve been taken myself for granted. I always place myself last in every list I make. It sucks! This year made me realized so many wrong things that I’ve been doing in my life which affected my emotional, mental, and physical health. I made a few changes this year, but I feel like they are still not enough.

Wounds Are Slowly Healing

Now that it’s already December, last month of the year; I can’t help but reflect how different this year has been for me than the previous year. I am definitely less stressed this year, but the stress and anxiety is still there (I doubt that will ever go away). But life is so much better now, that’s for sure. Thank You, God!

Last year, I can’t even sleep properly. I had so much stuff to think about, mostly problems. I was even suicidal. I am just so grateful that this year has been better; emotionally, financially (a little), and mentally.

You Can't Pour From an Empty Cup

Few days ago, I was feeling down, upset, and frustrated about my life. I just feel like I’m not going anywhere in my life while most of the people I know are already “someone” in life. An engineer, a nurse, a teacher, a soon-to-be doctor, and a lot more. I, on the other hand, is still a nobody.

I am in my usual home clothes everyday (not that I am complaining about that), but staying at home all the time has burned me out already. I need something that I can interact with people, make friends, learn something, just anything.

I was telling my boyfriend about it and like usual, being the best boyfriend that he is, he talked me out of the depression bubble. Everyone has a destination of their own, and they will get there at their own pace.

I did it!

I've been contemplating about cutting my hair for a very long time now. You see, I have a natural curly hair and I've never liked it. You know why, if you have curly hair. Sometimes, I love my curls, but most of the time I hated it because it's like it has a life of its own plus the time it requires to comb it. It will surely test your patience.

Yours truly!

Yep, that's me! :) If you've known me for a long time, I've always had my hair straightened, because straight hair is easier to maintain. But last year, I decided to just let my hair be. I'm just tired of all the chemicals they put into my hair, which causes more damage to it. So, when I just let my hair be curly, that's when I realized how hard it is to have them. I always dread combing my hair every morning.

You Can't Quit Now

Dear Self,

I know the past couple of months has been rough. I know you're tired. I know you feel like you carry the world on your shoulders. I know you want to cry. But I want to tell you something... you can't quit now!

You are an amazing woman. You've been through hell and back, and look at you now? Stronger than ever! You see, you are so much better now than the girl you are last year. Stronger, braver, smarter.

I know these words are not enough to heal the pain you are feeling now, but please know, someone out there cares for you. Something better is in store for you. Just keep on going and you'll see brighter days.

For now, hold tight and just enjoy the journey.

You may not see it, but every day you are getting better at understanding yourself. You are getting better at loving yourself and your body. That means so much! You are growing, my dear.

YOU ARE LUCKY

Have you realized how lucky you are lately? I don't only mean financially, but yes, that too. What I mean is, have you realized that you are lucky because you are healthy, you have friends that truly loves you, you have a family, you have food, you have education, and a lot of other things that other people don't have the luxury of anything? Because if not, then you are wrong. We are all lucky.

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I Am Flawed and It's Okay

I have always been an introvert. I was always the shy one in my circle of friends. I was always the one that think too much. I was always the one makes a big deal of what others think of what I look, what I do, how I sound, how I look, and etc.

Today, I am still one hell of an introvert. One of my jobs requires me to meet people from all walks of life, in short; strangers, and yet I am still not used to it even though I've been on it for three years now. I guess being an introvert doesn't change that fast. But I can proudly say I have crossed some of my inhibitions from my list and it felt so damn good. You know that feeling of achievement? Yeah, that.

I have come to terms on accepting my flaws. That I am not somebody else, but me, only me. I am not perfect, and that's perfectly fine. I will not be like her or like you no matter how I try, but I will always be me, and that's okay.

Reflections and Self Growth

We have to go through hardships before we can say that we are strong, mentally, emotionally, and physically. At a very young age, I’ve experienced hardships in life and I’ve been exposed to responsibilities that are not suitable for anyone my age. Despite all that, I’m very thankful because all those experiences and hardships honed me into the person I am today.

I remember my friend, Bradrick (or Brad as I call him), told me that I am wise beyond my years.

I don’t want to sound arrogant or anything, but I agree with that. I am only in my early 20’s but I am already thinking of long term plans and goals compared to anyone my age.

I Promised To Write

Ever since high school, I found refuge in writing. I write down everything; from happy moments to heartbreaking ones. Last year, I feel like something is dragging me not to write. That explains why my blogs are dead and my journal was empty all throughout the year, and that continued up to February of this year. I can say that I've improved a little this month because I've wrote a few pages in my personal journal, and it feels great!

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Goals for 2017

Hi guys! Can't believe it's been a year already since I purchased this domain name and started this blog. Some of you may know, I've been blogging since 2010 but I just keep making and making new blogs each year.

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Anyway, year 2016 is coming to an end! Time flies so fast, right? But, I'm glad it's about to end and we are about to unfold a new chapter. This year has been very challenging for me... Too much family problems, financial problems, too much self-pity, anger, work problems, emotional problems, and ups and downs of my long distance relationship. Yes, it has been very tough and I'm glad I have survived this far.